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Extroversion: You have high extroversion. You are outgoing and engaging, with both strangers and friends. You truly enjoy being with people and bring energy into any situation. Enthusiastic and fun, you're the first to say "let's go!" Conscientiousness: You have medium conscientiousness. You're generally good at balancing work and play. When you need to buckle down, you can usually get tasks done. But you've been known to goof off when you know you can get away with it. Agreeableness: You have low agreeableness. Your self interest comes first, and others come later, if at all. In general, you feel that people are not to be trusted. And you're skeptical that anyone else really feels differently. Neuroticism: You have low neuroticism. You are very emotionally stable and mentally together. Only the greatest setbacks upset you, and you bounce back quickly. Overall, you are typically calm and relaxed - making others feel secure. Openness to experience: Your openness to new experiences is high. In life, you tend to be an early adopter of all new things and ideas. You'll try almost anything interesting, and you're constantly pushing your own limits. A great connoisseir of art and beauty, you can find the positive side of almost anything.

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Rendition

Rendition: a controversial practice of the CIA in the removal or handing over of terrorism suspects, often to a detention facility where they will be brutally tormented until they 'confess' they are terrorists (Wikipedia, "Rendition (film)",2007).

'Government is authorized to transfer anyone they think might be a terrorist to prisons outside the U.S.'-Trailer.

This is one movie that really makes me pissed at Singapore's Censorship Board. It's been given a M18 rating locally, and obviously, you must be of age to be able to watch it in theatre, which is atrocious. In the United States, dammit, its 14A. Meaning 14-year-olds can stroll into the cinema and plainly watch the movie. Whereas, in Singapore, we must first blow out 18 candles on a cake and then, bring our IC to the cinema and show it to the people there before we can plainly watch the movie. Screw Censorship. It's not sexual, and its probably like that 'cause of the dark theme and violence. (Mature Content).

-.-

Censorship is aimed at protecting the sanctuary of young minds, unprepared for the brutality of humanness that these youngsters would inevitably come to exhibit one day. It makes sense not letting 13-year-olds see naked women in theatre, but it doesn't when it disallows shoot'em up films and let Chinese 'The Banquet' which is incredibly bloody, air.

And there is scant difference between 17 and 18. And I'm only 4 months from that age dammit. And they don't let me watch that film when I've already seen '300' and 'Borat: Cultural Learnings of America to Make Benefit Glorious Nation of Kazakhastan' on my own. I'm itching to watch this film! 2007 is a year of great movies-'Transformers', 'Secret' and now this.

I am now searching for a loophole in the law. Tell me if anyone of you have uncovered it. And wearing your father's old Army grey t-shirt don't work dude; it don't count as one method.

A bit riled today, but- Yesterday's Gym work was excellent. Chest, Shoulders and Triceps. Hurting in the right places. Went there at 1:38 pm after the 4 hour consultation with Ms Sophia Koh. That was a marathon. Anyway, gym. Like the way the weights are pushed off my chest while doing the Bench Press. The perceived most manly exercise. And the big weight plates on each side. Waaa. Happy. Switched to a heavier weight for the shoulders. Another reason to be happy. Endured through the treadmill. Getting more and more difficult recently. Probably because I upped the speeds.

Statistics from yesterday: Weight: 74.60 KG. (A shocker. Don't know where the pounds have gone. I've been sedate most of the week. Not eating?)

Burned 223 calories on the treadmill in 15:00 mins and ran nearly 3 km. Forgot the rest. Not fantastic, but decent. Just keeping records here. Don't think my audiences give a damn.

Went back to MJC to continue with PW. Reached after 4:30, after a satisfying meal at Eastlink Foodcourt. The class had relocated to C 4-2 and a good many groups were still there. Helped entertain Hui Min, if I couldn't work on the WR personally, and dueled Hakim in PikaBall (Pikachu Volleyball). Didn't lose that badly considering he and Jeremy are the Elite Four status figures in class. 15-10.

Ms Koh was still at it, chionging our WRs. She spent 4 hours with each group and was still with the 2nd group when I went back. Really awed by her. She barely ate, and was still at it since 8 plus in the morning. She stayed until after 10 at night I think. Really respect, yo. And like her too.

But while we guys were bored, we decided to do something stupid. Me, Hakim, Jeremy, Jay. Jeremy first said he wanted to go toilet. So I said I was going too, and so was Hakim. Jay also got on. We walked and then collectively got a stupid idea to use the girls' toilet. So we crept to the lit toilet and I called out in a 'girl' high-pitched voice 3 times: "Is anybody in there? Is anybody in there?"

There was no answer, so I thought the coast was clear. Then I jumped in and said I was gonna run in and touch the wall deep inside the toilet. I ran in and Jeremy was behind me. I was nearly at the wall and I turned to look behind me, and a girl was at the mirror, staring at us. Jeremy saw me looking and we were so shocked that there was still a girl inside. WTF. We chiong out of the toilet and jeremy and I ran to the Boys' Toilet to laugh our asses off. We rolled on the floor of the Boys' Toilet laughing like siao for about 1 min, I think. It was so frigging funny. We waited for a while, before going back.

We later apologised to her. She was a J2, we found out. And she said this, "you all very childish".

And it was true. We are childish.

But it was fun. Everybody should try it. HA!

Have an OGL interview later. Have to charge up my charms and impress. I do want to be an OGL badly. It was fun when I did it in Council in AHS (We won best OG). One of the best experiences in that old place. Hopefully, I'll relive it on a similar form in Meridian.

Meridian's a great place. But a place isn't great by itself. It's mostly 'cause of the people inside. Nobody's paid me to advertise my college. But I'll do it anyway. Come on over aliens, and work our havoc together in Orientation I 2008. It'll be fun. I think we can promise that.

I'm leaving to claim reimbursement for my publicity efforts here.

Adieu.

October 16, 2007

My Priorities

• See off Project Work (PW), sealing the entire affair in leaden casing, imperturbable by any mischief or mishap, or Superman's X-Ray vision. The dude can't see through lead. (We should actually cover our privates with pencil lead so as to safeguard our modesty from this wanton pervert).
• Dedicated Gymwork. Have been feeling lazy and/or weaker recently. Probably a result of vile Project Work, I wager. Lack of sleep. Loss in strength and drive. Eating and Sleeping at cursed times. Or not at all. Either one of the two is debilitating enough.
• Get past Tameshiwari before Sensei leaves in November for the 9th World Karate Tournament and his Dan test.
• Decipher the garbled signals that my heart, mind and emotions are giving me, to precisely figure out who's the one that's the one.
• Clearly define BB's portion in my life, or the portion of my life (devotion) that is given to BB.
• End 2007 on a good note.

There's more. I made a list in February of the things that I want done by December. Typical- Not all are struck off yet. There's only 10 weeks of this year left. Judging by how fast time's dove into December, 10 weeks is short. Even shorter since we're living in the 10th.

Time is relative. Looking back, I still remember writing in the first of a series of my white notebooks at the first few pages about the macrogoals I want done by the end of the year. And the feeling then was like-hey, its still the dawn of the year. slowly man!-now, everything's flown by. Is the world spinning faster?

Time slips through our grasp; it leaks through our fingers like sand. If we don't keep it carefully, it'll be gone. And we'll be left with nothing at the end.

Treasure time and what it offers. It takes a lesson; or many lessons to get that.

什麼使我高興:

• Working on the References in the Written Report, repetitive typing and sorting, with loving piano pieces as accompaniment in the morning.
• _______'s company.
• Hakim and Derek; Andrew, Jay.... Rejoice in friends.
• Chocolate. And its Dopamine content that induces mild euphoria.
• Some other significant quality in the day that I can't quite place.

I am going to heed my biological readout and turn in.

(BOW)

Seeya.

我的天使

The most beautifulest girl in the world.

Your IQ Is 105

Your Logical Intelligence is Below Average Your Verbal Intelligence is Genius Your Mathematical Intelligence is Above Average Your General Knowledge is Above Average

A Quick and Dirty IQ Test

IN NEED OF APT TITLE

This week's been alternating between good and bad.
Promotional Exams is a huge blow.
Tomorrow's Biology Grand-Reveal will be decisive. Pass it and I'm JC2 next year, flunk it and I'm gonna be...
That's not a cheerful thought. I've failed the typical papers that the large population has also done badly in, so I'm the norm. That isn't cheerful either.
My status: Precarious.
But whatever it is, I am thankful for God's grace and His mercy.
And Mr. Oi's last minute guidance. It's interesting to note that whenever I enlist his mighty assistance, I do OK.
Retainment isn't far away from my person yet. So I remain cautious.
But we still worry about things that are out of our control. Can't help it.

At least I'm getting back in shape.
Getting back in the gym to resume the workout was hard. And now that I'm working towards the massive size and weight of 78 kgs, I have to go hard and heavy.
The first time back in there was difficult. The simple abdominal routines pained me before I even started lifting any thing heavier than a pencil box. I'm amazed I didn't give up.

Have been gyming totally for the whole of last week and will do so as long as circumstances permit. I'm never abandoning the workout again. Do not ever abandon your workout or shun the gym. It is a good way of building strength, speed, power and muscle. Yeah.
And gymwork does not stunt your growth, for pubescent kids. Ya.

I'm on track so far, from last week's 74.64 kgs to 75.15 kgs.
It's the weight that I was at Sec 4, but I feel more powerful, stronger and faster than then. The composition of my mass has changed. Less fat by a lot. Happier in the mirror now. But these pursuits aren't simply superficial.

This is for Xing Kai and my other BB juniors who're interested in training and looking good-
Men who are brawny are less likely to die from impacted injuries than their skinny counterparts (Men's Health, September 2007).
I need the strength and power in Karate. Asian and Singaporeans aren't heavyweights unless-is there an unless?


Learned:

• Weilin comes up with a lotta nonsense.
• There are times when getting our butts down to do a task is hard. That kinda feeling sucks. But looking back a bit later, the wrenching regret is a more sucky feeling. So plough through and do it!

(eg. MJCians are feeling this through the week. My BB Boys, when you don't have the guts to walk up to that cute girl you fancy and get to know her, and then miss that chance, ending up never knowing her. Or missing a ticket to Japan.) Keep moving forward!

• Er. Teachers are deceptive. Believe less than half of what they say. Except for Mr. Choo. The rest, regard it with the highest suspicion. My Chemistry paper is testament.
• Government or secret services are highly paranoid. They are probably sieving through our files and viewed documents right now. So stop visiting your porn sites kids. Maybe you can try typing sensitive words and see if they come knocking on your door. keywords like 'LKY', "Lee Hsien Loong", Osama, Terrorist. CIA. And the like. It'll be amusing. And it'll expose them for pervading our privacy, that many believe to be a right. An infringed right now. But who cares even if Big Brother's watching?
• ?

Credits:

• Thanks be to God. Naturally.
• Hui Min, Amanda and Rebecca's tolerance for me being a laidback PW member.
• Jeremy's help in the Gym on Monday. I would not have stuck through with my regime.
• Derek's companionship and in lending me money when I'm broke. I love him.
• Hakim's Star Wars Novels.
• Andrew and Jay's humour. Got them damn fun.
• A host of friends that I've not blatantly stated.

My musings aren't generally applicable. It's my navigation site and where I listen to the music pieces that I currently like, and to rebuke, abuse and scold the scums that I have the misfortune of meeting. I risk sounding gay often. I'd like to take this time to express my distaste, disgust and utmost dislike for homosexuals. They are deluded abominations. Sorry, but I don't like them. If you happen to be one, see a doctor. Or get far away from me, or I'll sock you. And I use this to hint at my political alleigiance and my beliefs-religious or philosophical.

And since a passer-by has asked, I'd like to declare: I'm single and looking. LOL.

I love Hakim, Derek and a whole lot of guys, but I'm a girl-liking guy. And I'm not looking for a girlfriend. Past that. Looking for the girl that I love and loves me; that will spend the rest of our lives together. I'm a romantic. Piscean. Can't help it. Am training to not bother about things I can't help with.

I've spent the day in college, getting back apalling papers, watching "Secret" for the 11th time in college, got more papers and came home, watched star wars vids on youtube. The end of exams also means a loss of direction.

Au Revoir.

"Let me tell you something you already know. The world ain't all sunshine and rainbows. It is a very mean and nasty place and it will beat you to your knees and keep you there permanently if you let it. You, me, or nobody is gonna hit as hard as life. But it ain't how hard you hit; it's about how hard you can get hit, and keep moving forward. How much you can take, and keep moving forward. That's how winning is done. Now, if you know what you're worth, then go out and get what you're worth. But you gotta be willing to take the hit, and not pointing fingers saying you ain't where you are because of him, or her, or anybody. Cowards do that and that ain't you. You're better than that!"-Rocky

I find you try a little harder when you're scared.-also Rocky