God is amazing. Really. Last Saturday at parade, had a really illuminating chat with Mr. Oi about living the Christian life the Christian way, and I received many principles, some old and were forgotten previously; some new and thought out myself, led by Mr. Oi too.

Wasn't exactly living life the way I should, since now I am in Christ. Was probably 'in Christ' before this much less than part-time.

And the loss of my old bible, one that led me into the Christian faith, and the receiving of a new hardcover maroon BB Bible from Mr. Poh and Mr. Oi did mean something more than a replacement Word of God. It meant a new restart in the Christian life for me, and a reminder that I was brought near my Creator by the Boys' Brigade.

Mr. Oi talked to me about constant struggles living as a Christian that I share-about 'loving your neighbour as yourself' which i find really really difficult for me and especially towards certain people who have a way of invoking anger in you unknowingly.
He talked about God's grace in granting us eternal life by drawing a link between the gratitude a beggar feels when a Rich Man takes him up and adopts him as His son. Well. We man are the beggars and God is the gracious rich man who lifts us from our misery.
He also asked me, when I said that I'd rather be dead than live life on, that whether was my wanting to die now was for myself or for God. Stunned.
He also talked to me about the Parable of the Rich Fool, who stored up treasures eagerly on earth to enjoy his life, where God said that 'this very night, your life will be taken from you'.
This was a reminder to store up riches in heaven instead of wanting to live life on earth easily.

What I thought, and also somewhat invoked by Mr. Oi was:
Our life must reflect the change promised at confession.

God is amazing.
The first day with the new maroon bible, I flipped and encountered this verse in Proverbs 16:33-'The lot is cast into the lap, but its every decision is from the Lord.'
I remembered my bit of disagreement with Pastor Jimmy over whether Paul was the replacement apostle for Judas or the dude that the remaining apostles drew lots and picked.

And so, I had the whim, brought about by a consistent curiousity to find out who would be my prospective soulmate. I took a 10 cent coin and asked God if H would be the one I'd end up with. I started flipping the coin FIFA referee style. Every single time was heads! Every single time.
I tried to validate the 'readings' by interrupting with another name, A, and it the coin turned up tails exactly then.
And it was always heads with H!

I was rather happy that it was H, seeing that there was a kinda link between us from before. So the prospect of us together wasn't that hard to imagine.
I wasn't really sure what was the reason that the results were thus, but wasn't exactly going to reject the idea. H was a really sweet girl.

Then, I realised that she was attached. While still keeping her options open, maintaining contact with me.
How nice.

It made me realise that it is hard to love a person, and that we should all spend more in loving God than giving concern to our insignificant flickering love lives.
What a roundabout way to make me turn to Him.
I submit.