25th August

First, Happy Birthday, Jeremy!
Feel bad for not being able to go with the group with the Captain and throw him in some fountain or water body on his seventeenth year on this planet.
But at least Shez and I can be sure he'll be pleasantly surprised on Monday, and probably extremely grateful. We got him a pack of condoms! Use them well!
It's a beautiful night. The cities will be twinkling sweetly. Pray they have lots of fun!

Today was, howdowesay-an awkward sorta day. Didn't feel like I was up to much work actually. Floated through the morning bit of the day and then got outdoors to head to Toa Payoh Stadium for the Shodan (First Degree) Blackbelt test. It was a prelude to the full grading tomorrow, and it was a sorta opportunity to check out the people I would fight tomorrow too. Unfortunately, the Gurka Contingent Dojo members weren't there, so I couldn't see my opponents in full.

The Gurkha are professsional soldiers that are sort of contract mercenaries that are in Singapore's service and are the frontline in mostly national defence and local counter-terrorism operations.

I came off disadvantaged in most of my encounters with them. Probably because they were adult. In gradings, especially the latest this time last year in 2006, it seemed alright. but back then, it was only 10 men.
This time its 20. Nervous now, blood curdling and all.

The run was quite decent. 8 rounds around the outside track and in a sensible time. Tried to slow down so as to not tax my system, but ended up going a bit faster than intended. Crystal needs more work to beat me in 2.4. Only known 1 girl personally who's able to beat me in running. Sensei's daughter, Flavia. Cannot forget. She's been asking me to run with her, but I'm not stupid. Not gonna look foolish trailing behind her, LOL.

Tomorrow morning, will go to the CC to take on the entire grading. Worried that I'll fail. The likelihood is definitely not zero. A degree of nervousness is reasonable, but not enjoying the feeling of having my chest not beat, then jumpbeat quickly for the next interval. What scares me? The entire affair. Fighting 20 hot-blooded soldier types and pulling through to break the 8 tiles that will wait while I bleed on the mat.
I'm rambling probably. But I need an outlet to project my anxiety onto. Not that the world really gives a damn about what happens tomorrow.
Forgive my irrelevance.

I got this from Kenneth. Makes no sense. But it does make me smile grudgingly.

Ten Top Trivia Tips about Song Leng!

1. A bride should wear something old, something new, something borrowed, and Song Leng.
2. Song Leng is the traditional gift for a couple on their third wedding anniversary.
3. Song Leng can squeeze his entire body through a hole the size of his beak!
4. The average human spends about 30 days during their life in Song Leng.
5. The book of Esther in the Bible is the only book which does not mention Song Leng!
6. US gold coins used to say 'In Song Leng we trust'!
7. Song Leng, from the movie of the same name, had green blood.
8. Song Leng can taste with his feet.
9. The blood of mammals is red, the blood of insects is yellow, and the blood of Song Leng is blue.
10. Red Song Leng at night, shepherd's delight. Red Song Leng at morning, shepherd's warning.

I am interested in - do tell me aboutherhimitthem

Go there if you need a grim smile. Thanks Kenneth!

Thursday, August 14

A host of events making me disgruntled.
Disgruntled is a light-hearted description.

Ailment:

Lack of Gym work; slipping in homework and revision; and intolerable lack of sleep.

Remedy:

• 72 hours of undisturbed and dreamless sleep,
• preceded by a heavy gym regime
• an entire month etched in limbo, carved out of nothingness for purpose of bull-dozing away heaps of tutorials that will be asked for relative from today, tomorrow.
• A charted, ideal revision of previous 'supposed' learns.

Will the above settle into real-lity? Chuckle.

Was really brimming with rage and frustration today. Ate my only meal for the school day at 845 + and went with nothing until what? 7:00+? If not for the sumptous spectacle twisting offered, would have beaten up/ offed some unlucky bugger. Squaring off with rival house Phobos during the silly game added a bit to the displeasure amassed from lack of sleep, from not doing homework and the unnecessary 2.4 km run. The pain was only dulled by the eye candies strutting about in their flamboyant FBTs.

Didn't finish the Chemistry Make-up test I thought I could breeze; made a sequence of wrong decisions:

-Not using my break while the class was having Mother Tongue to multi-task by eating too. Disregarding my hunger pangs was a big mistake.

-Not skipping the non-beneficial and somewhat supplementary PW lecture at 1:45 to eat.

-Not adhering to the callouts in my head during the run to bring the timing closer to A(10:21 min). Still hovering at 10:50.

Maybe God might be gracious again. Counting on Him to be, even if i didn't earn it.

Praise God!

America's Got Talent

On a childish, random note, i decided i like to wield thick dark strong smelling markers. The white board marker kind, silver and stubby in length.
Just after i've typed the above sentence, i took off the cap to sniff the delicious smell. And a dab of it got on my nose. Real smart.

Was feeling rotten most of the day and didn't manage to get much work done, but wanted to make a stab at it, so came online. The stab was a half-hearted prod at the document I was trying to produce for PW. Then got hit by a wave of viruses. Somehow. An error surfaced, that prevented me from opening new Windows on my internet explorer. Was at an unpleasant standstill with the computer.

Every time I tried to open a new tab, a prompt would tell me to download something called navcancl. Downloaded it, but still couldn't work. The file was labelled to be corrupt and I couldn't work with IE still. Went to bathe and read the Bible to clear my head. Came back to stare at my miserable last internet window.

Searched for 'navcancl' in Yahoo. Came to the 'navcancl error search results', and got the list of fixes.

If you are also hit by this irritating problem, a guy called Mark offered this. It works.

go to Run and enter:
iexplore.exe -nohome -extoff
and go to
Tools,
Internet Options,
Advanced
Security
check on, Disable Phishing Filter
close Internet Explorer and reopen Internet Explorer.
Fixed.

Hopefully, this helps when I work on my stuffs.
To get back some'o that momentum that I've been missing this whole week.
Conjunctivitis is a frightful predicament. It inflicts pain, severe unease, inabililty to perceive the world and the scant beauty it still has amidst the ugliness, calls for cruel isolation from the rest of humanity, robs me of my will and drive to work.

You Are 80% Burned Out

You are very burned out. You need a huge break from your responsibilities, starting as soon as possible. And you need this time to reevaluate what you really want out of your life. Because you're working hard and going no where... and that would burn anyone out!

Are You Burned Out?

Will You-Singapore NDP 2007 Theme Song

Intoxicated. Bathing in the feel of swooning drunkenness after basking in the glow of a beautiful girl.